I woke up around 6:30, before my alarm went off, and instinctively reached for my phone. The first notification I saw was from Soompi saying that Shinee’s Jonghyun had passed away.
And then my Twitter feed blew up.
SHINee wasn’t my bias group but I do really like them a lot and even if I didn’t, this news still would have shattered me. And there was a SHINee song in my dream last night too! Which isn’t that unusual considering I have Kpop playing all night along – it helps me to wake up in a not-so-miserable mood, you guys.
Suicide is so jarring. I feel like I just want to hug everyone today and I hate hugs typically. Instead, I will just count down the hours until I can come home from work, bury my face in a pillow, and sob uncontrollably. And probably also drink some soju, you don’t know me.
Until then, I will spend all day dwelling on the whys of suicide, crying for his family, worrying about the remaining SHINee members.
Such a beautiful man. I hate knowing he was hurting so much. :(
ETA: Saw this on Twitter and ugly-cried my sad face right off.
https://twitter.com/frealuvsuga/status/942853540619411456
So heartbreaking. May this beautiful and tormented soul rest in eternal peace.
Indeed! Let him finally get the rest he has been deprived of. He will be terribly missed. :(