On Sunday, we went to the Cathedral of Learning in Oakland because I’ve been on this “must see the Christmas decorations” kick and figured that would be the last chance. I like to visit the Cathedral every so often because it brings me great peace which is funny considering that whenever I was an actual student there I felt sick to myself every single time I walked in that place. Lol.
(Afterward we went to Sumi’s for some Korean 빵 and boba tea. The girl working was listening to Wanna One and Henry kept trying to get me to talk to her but I wouldn’t because I am the epitome of awkward shut-in when it comes to spontaneous social interactions.)
Anyway, these are the last pictures I took in 2018 because I worked dumb late shift from home on New Years Eve and instead of going to any parties I opted to stay in and watch rollercoaster and Winner videos because you know what, THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY which leads me to my 2019 resolution which is CONTINUING MAKING MYSELF HAPPY.
A few years ago I realized that the key to (my) happiness was being selfish. Yeah, I’m a selfish person when I need to be, I say no way more now than I used to, and I don’t feel guilty for opting to make more time for myself. It makes me less stressed which in turn makes me more bearable to be around (mostly, right Henry? Lol).
2018 was a real rollercoaster (lol) but this was the first time in years that I made it through a year without it giving me the proverbial bad taste in my mouth. Yes, politically and socially shit is more fucked than ever. But on a personal front, 2018 didn’t do me too dirty.
Of course I had my lows. How can you highs without the lows? I basically don’t want to remember the month of June at all but at least I can say that I made it, I moved on, I grew (a little bit?).
But man, the highs were so high that they made the lows seems like super distant memories. We went to goddamn Korea, the trip of my dreams, and my life was changed.
We went to NYC twice, and a bunch of awesome amusement parks beyond Kennywood like Everland, Holidayworld, Knoebel’s, and Dollywood.
Overall, when I think of 2018, one word comes to mind and it is F-U-N.
So why fix something that’s not broken? I want to fill 2019 with even more fun! More amusement parks, more trips, more Kpop concerts (we’ve already got two coming up!).
Another thing that will continue into 2019 is my obsession with overall wellness. It was New Year’s Day 2013 (OMG that feels so long ago) when I was tipping the scale at 200 pounds and FINALLY got the wake-up call to make changes. My journey has been extremely slow and my methods have changed over the years, but the bottom line is that my main focus is always on my health/fitness, and I’m happy to say that even though it has taken me since last spring to get myself into the “healthy BMI zone” whatever the fuck that even means, the mindset and routines are cemented into my brain now. Sometimes I’m SOOOOO near-sighted when it comes to this part of my life and I get all stressed out over gaining a pound or two when the bigger picture is that I have lost over 50 pounds and am way more physically active than I have ever been!
I don’t give myself enough credit for that. So this is me, I don’t know, giving myself credit. As cringe-y as this makes me feel!
But the whole reason I brought this up is because Chooch has willingly, on his own, decided that he’s ready to make lifestyle changes too! I’m so excited about this! We started working out together (he’s now a huge fan of Jillian Michaels lol) and I’ve been helping him make healthy food choices. He’s even agreed to eat the same things I eat for dinner now which makes Henry happy because he used to have to make us separate meals since Chooch is so picky and I’m so Korean (lol). In just a week, Chooch has already noticed a difference in himself and has begun to look forward to our workouts! It’s a really great feeling to know that I’m contributing to what hopefully become lifelong healthy habits for him and not looking for the easy way out, fast fixes, and crash diets like I used to do because I didn’t have anyone in my life who was like, “Lose the Slim-Fast and try actually eating healthy meals.”
(LOL @ Henry sleeping in the back of the class)
During one of our Leslie Sansone walking workouts (you guys, they’re so dumb and we make up back-stories for everyone in her walking crew, like this one broad who we have pegged as a chronic adultress), I suggested to Chooch that we start our own YouTube workouts and he was like “big fat NO to that.”
Now that Chooch is a nutritionist, he’s been criticizing Henry’s poor choices. Henry snapped one day and yelled, “OH, AND YOU’RE JUST THE PICTURE OF HEALTH!” Henry is so supportive, basically the manager of our fan cafe.
Chooch made a food-shaming video of Henry eating an ice cream in the car on the way home from the grocery store last weekend and it is EVERYTHING. Chooch’s laugh in this video makes me nearly pee my pants:
The more I reflect back on 2018, the happier I am with how it turned out. There is always room for improvement though so I’m not going to be a slacker during 2019 by any means! I definitely don’t like how easily I succumb to negativity so that’s on the list of shit to work on. Baby steps! My power of persuasion can only get me so far. It’s not actually a super power!
I just asked Henry if he has anything he wants to say about 2019 and he said, “Yeah, 2019 you’re on your own” because that’s his “resolution” that he has been threatening Chooch and me with for the last few days, something about how he’s not going to do anything for us anymore and we’ll have to feed ourselves, blah blah blah.
LOL ok Henry.
Well, here’s to another year of riding roller coasters, staying off Facebook (honestly the best decision!), laugh-puking with Chooch, and maybe Korea again!? And on that note, I’m going to rest for a bit because I have my annual New Year’s fever – it’s the weirdest thing. I almost always start the new year with a fever WHAT DOES IT MEAN.
I still read your posts on LJ and have remembered that commenting there just goes into some sort of weird black hole/abyss. So I am actually opening your blog link in a new tab and commenting here so you can SEE IT.
First, it’s so fun to see how you looked back on your year and recognized all the things that made it an amazing experience as well as a struggle. I enjoyed reading everything. I’d love to know more about your eating and exercise routines… the things that worked for you, what you like best, how you make it fun. It’s also amazing that Chooch is starting to follow in your footsteps. That’s huge!
Keep making yourself happy, Erin… you deserve it!
Hi Maya!! I hope you didn’t think I was ignoring you – I don’t get notifications for comments on the LJ feed. I wish I did!
I’ll make another post with all my food/exercise tips but feel free to text me anytime and we can dish! I’m certainly not an expert but it’s fun to talk about :) When I was a pre-teen, I was really overweight and instead of helping me understand things like exercise and eating properly, my family was like, “HERE, HAVE SOME SLIM-FAST” and that really created nearly a lifetime of bad choices/food-fear/crash dieting for me. So I used my own experiences as a way to get Chooch on the right path without freaking him out or shaming him because healthy habits need to last forever! Video games are freaking ruining American kids!
I hope all is well with you and your awesome family – send me pictures of the baby!
Oh my god – I just saw your email address and realized that this is MODESTMAYA! I’m so sorry, I thought you were a different Maya so disregard the part of my reply about sending me pictures of the baby, doh! Send me pictures of your new toilet instead, lol!
haaha – no worries, when I saw your first reply I was like… I know I look pregnant in pictures, but I didnt know I looked THAT pregnant. Gotta get rid of this paunch belly!
Once you said you’d mistakenly thought I was another Maya, that was a huge relief. PHEW!
I can provide not only more toilet pictures, I can send a VIDEO. Live action. I mean, I won’t take a dump and spray my actual b-hole on camera, but I can still convey the idea of how fun and awesome this bad boy is. It took Saul many trips to Home Depot and lots of cussing to get it actually up and running, but man, it was worth it!