There is plenty more to say about this whacked situation, but I do have to admit that it’s kind of exhausting to relive it. Helpful, cathartic, bittersweet at times; but very, very exhausting! So I need a little break because it only gets more whacked and more evident that a lobotomy might be something I’d enjoy more than ever seeing her face again.
Here is a recap in case you missed anything:
Caught the Friendship Like an STD
Where Spring Fever & My Big Mouth Get Me in Trouble
Thank you to those who have read these with an open mind and haven’t pointed out all the many ways I’m an asshole/idiot/gullible retard.
Take your time with it. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to dredge up these memories and feelings. Thanks for being so honest and open about it, it really takes a lot of courage to do what you’re doing, and you continue to inspire me every day. xo.
I hear that. It is some interesting reading though and your honestly is what is best. Not all people can be so honest.
I was just wondering when I’d get to read more! I can understand how taxing it must be on many levels to write it out, but I’m glad you’re doing it. <3
I remember when you asked me last summer what had happened between Christina and me, I was still in that place where I was afraid to be fully honest about everything. So I’m glad you’re reading this now!
Don’t call yourself names, if it isn’t upsetting to you, it’s upsetting to me. You are a brave/courageous/intelligent/strong and beautiful woman, be kinder with your descriptions of my friend.
Aw, thanks! I don’t mean to upset you. I’m self-deprecating and facetious by nature. I don’t mean it most of the times, just the way I am. Don’t think I can change that after 30 years!
lol i just found her livejournal
she sounds like a sensitive guy. it was kind of hot until i remembered it’s a raging bull dyke, and not holden caulfield
AHAHAHA! Isn’t that just…I can’t even. All the girls were like fawning over that post and I couldn’t figure it out. It wasn’t THAT great! That was also around the time I was sincerely beginning to dislike her, not as a “girlfriend,” but just…as a person.
I have a problem with people who share poetry
nothing against poetry itself. but it just irks me so bad when people share it. i dont know WHAT my hangup is all about
stalking aside, I can see why she irked you
I liked that she wrote me poetry at first. In fact, I encouraged it. But there was always that sexual element to it that kind of made me feel uncomfortable. I guess it’s because so much about my life is out there for all to consume, I’d like to have one thing (my sex life) that can remain private.
I never liked any of her poems that weren’t about me. Lololol.
OH SHIT! Somewhere in my LJ, there’s a phone post of me reciting one of her poems. I’ll try to find itttt!