This week with Chooch feels like it has been slipping through my fingers and I hate it :( We haven’t done anything super major, just hanging out and getting on each others nerves so it feels like everything is back to normal, even if it’s short-lived.

Monday night, he went to the movies alone (he is a true cinephile, you guys, it’s crazy but also very cool) and saw the AMC “Screen Unseen” which was some army movie that I have never heard of and he hated it. Then his friends Isai and Zakk came over to play board games in the attic and that felt like old times too but HOW ARE THESE KIDS TWENTY YEARS OLD NOW. Sickening!!!

Last night, Chooch and I watched Bugonia at home and that was fun to get to watch something with him since he’s Mr. Movie.

Speaking of!! When Henry and I were at one of the antique shops on Memorial Day, I saw a bunch of laser discs and out of curiosity, looked up The Lost Boys laser discs on eBay. I found a Japanese import and was like, “Well, I guess I collect laser discs now.” It arrived yesterday and I love it so much! I specifically went with the Japanese import because the cover image is different than the US one and I wanted it.

I don’t know what to do with it just yet but I’ll figure something out!

In other non-movie news, I had therapy yesterday which was good because I have been very fired up about my white trash neighbor fighting with his ex in the front yard on Monday. Henry and I went for a walk later that night and my chest was TIGHT from all stress and anger I was feeling, and I just kept doing that cyclical I HATE MEN rant I do every time I witness an injustice toward the female kind, which is exactly what was happening that day. I hate this man SO MUCH. Henry was like, “There are two sides—” and I was like, “Imma stop you right there, cis white male…” because I watched that piece of shit come at her from the back and push her hard enough that he knocked her headphones off her head.

The way I was so ready to come tearing through the screen of the front door like the Kool-Aid Man, but Erin-shaped and way less jolly and sweet!!!! Henry grabbed my arm (gently, he’s not a brute like that WHITE TRASH SON OF SLUMLORD) and quietly said, “Let it go, don’t get involved.”

And I know that was the right thing to do because just yesterday morning, I glanced at the kitchen Echo and saw the headline “Man shot downtown trying to stop a dispute.” It’s always the third party. I did journal a little bit that night though and I will tell you — there really is something very therapeutic about the sound of scissors on paper and using a glue stick. I was sitting here with all my journaling accoutrement spread out around me when Chooch came home from the movie and rolled his eyes at me. :)

Anyway, as I was saying, it was good that I had therapy the very next day because we spent almost the entire session talking about it, how it triggered my manager parts (I think — I get the “parts” mixed up ALL THE TIME but I will tell you that we named one of my parts “The Brat” and another “Noonchi” lol) and took me right back. to when I was dating Psycho Mike and being abused in a plethora of creative ways that didn’t leave physical marks but have stuck with me for 30 years.

She asked, “Did it make you feel like it was happening to you?” and I was like, “You know what? Yes. That’s exactly how I was feeling, like I was watching it happen to myself all over again and I wanted to save her.”

Man, yesterday was a great reminder that it’s never too late to start therapy, even if you think you’re “over” the trauma from childhood, teenage years, your first real job.

It was also fun because I had just gone to see Dance Gavin Dance and just a reminder that my therapist is also a Warped Tour girlie so she knows about all of this stuff and we usually spend a chunk of time fan-girding over music, so when she was like, “I know DGD but not very much about their past” so I was like, “OK WELL THEY STARTED OUT WITH JONNY CRAIG—-” and boiii let me tell you how satisfying it is to pretend like I’m a Professor of Post-Hardcore with someone who willingly signed up for my class.

Except I’m paying her.

LOL.

“I just saw something about Craig Owens and Jonny Craig talking about getting a band back together or something…” she said, and I practically screamed, “ISLES AND GLACIERS! I don’t think it’s really going to happen though because they’d need to get Vic Fuentes to sign on and Pierce the Veil has gotten way too successful for him to risk associating with Jonny Craig again.”

Breathe, Erin, breathe.

Well, that’s my mid-week check-in. I still need to recap the DGD show from Sunday—I have big feeling about that and need to collect my thoughts. Now I think I’m going to go and watch Scream because I just finished reading some behind the scenes book about the Scream franchise and I am feeling very inspired to rewatch them all. (I actually have only seen 1-3 and 6 if you can believe that!!)

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